Chanel 2009

    刚刚接到宠物医院的电话，坚持了一个礼拜，Michael还是不行了，我很down...

    Michael是我家的小宠物，一只虎头虎脑的小贵宾犬，有了它，生活充满乐趣。记得刚买下Michael的时候，叮当就说：信不信，你又会把它训练成一只养尊处优的笨狗的！我嘴里跟她抬杠说不会，可心里还是默认的。算起来，从小到大也养了不下5只，每次都希望能把它训练成一只智慧的伴侣犬，可到头来它总是成为笨笨的宠物，原因只有一个——我不忍心，在它随地大小便的时候不忍心打它，在它乱咬沙发的时候不忍心骂它，不怕被笑，买了K记都是我吃骨头它吃肉，呵呵，我每天都被它吃得死死的。怪不得你们都说，我是训练不出聪明的狗的。 

    大二的时候打过一个辩题，生命是坚强的/脆弱的，我是正方，还能清楚地记得自己在场上是如何滔滔不绝地对生命是如何如何的坚强做着理性的价值判断，可辩的毕竟不是真理，此刻，真的不得不感叹，生命如此脆弱。生命真的很脆弱，它与病菌抗衡的能力微乎其微。从出生到死亡，生命的对外界的抵抗力经历着从弱渐强，再渐弱的轮回。Michael还是只幼犬，刚刚3个月，怎么抵挡细小病菌的感染呢，真无奈。

    把伤心爆发到极致，是不是真的会好一点。。。

    miss you so much

    9.28要考托，按常理来说，现在应该已经进入冲刺阶段了，可是，最近好像很没状态。

    法院那边最近事很多，9.20要司考了，庭里大部分助理休假的休假，备考的备考，让我本来就充实的实习更加忙碌，看书的时间也少了。本来，多接触一些实体和程序上的工作应该能得到更好的锻炼，可在这个关键的备考时期，我实在是兴奋不起来。

    这些日子思维也很混乱，该想的、不该想的，现实的、不现实的，可能的、不可能的，都想了很多，关键时候掉链子，我这是怎么了？真不喜欢这样的自己。

    回归吧，我的心灵和斗志，有什么比把握眼前更重要呢，彻底回归吧，你是最棒的！

    从来不相信星座，认为每一个星座的特质都或多或少蕴含着复杂人性中的某种余晖。每每别人问我是什么星座的，我都会反过来让他们猜，而每每，他们的答案总是惊人的相似，都说我是处女座的。虽然他们猜错了，但我很好奇，自己究竟具备处女座的什么特质，一问才知，在别人眼中我是个完美主义者。

     好吧，我承认，自己对完美曾经有着一种苛求。从小到大，在我的生活圈子里，我总是希望比别人出类拔萃，无论是学习成绩还是综合素质，抑或小提琴、围棋、书法、芭蕾等兴趣爱好，我都在尽最大的努力做最好的自己，少了玩乐的时间，多的是超乎同龄的成熟，在不断追求完美的过程中，我累并快乐的。

    其实谁都明白，世上从来就没有完美的事物，就连科学赖以发展的公理，也总是存在某种假设和前提。可人性就是这么矛盾，即使看清了一个道理，也难以抑制内心深处的本我。

    完美固然能在某种程度上体现出一种高尚的追求，但对完美主义者而言，在一个现实的世界里，我们找不到理想的乌托邦，因此便会对很多事物感到不满，认定他们或多或少都有这样那样的缺陷，或多或少都有非得改变的理由。

    随着年龄的增长，视野的开阔，现实告诉我，我不再可能在任何方面都得心应手了，越来越多优秀的人走进了我的圈子，理所当然，在许多方面博而不精的我也就失去了优势。突如其来的改变令我十分不适，内心的成就感被巨大的失落吞噬。意识到自己和别人存在种种差距后，我才豁然开朗，原来，我是如此平凡。

    忘了是谁告诉我，改变不了现实，就试着改变自己的想法。时至今日，对完美的苛求只会徒增我的压力，毕竟是年轻的孩子，何必把心压得太沉重呢。卸下沉重的负担，是时候该向完美主义告别了。

    就如After all, tomorow is another day一样，每一个故事的结局似乎都应预示着某种希望。未来的路还很漫长，但愿我能如奥林匹克格言——更快、更高、更强...

Jessup, which has the full name of the Philip C. Jessup International Law Moot Court Competition, is the world's largest moot court competition. After being held 48 years, it has been labelled as the Legal Olympic Games that was a wonderful dream for law school students all over the world, so did I. To be a law school student of 2005 session in Shenzhen University, I’d like to tell you why I want to compete in Jessup and why I will be successful in Jessup.

Three reasons, simple but steadfast, could explain why I want to compete in JESSUP: the passion for this attractive competition, the opportunity for showing myself, and the challenge for being stronger. I have adequate passion, first, because it bring me ecstasy so great. Last year, it was Shenzhen University’s opportunity to held Jessup. I had the honor to serve as the group leader of the reception group of entrant team of Organizing Committee. It meaned that I would have a further chance to contact with the competitors and the competition. During the transient four days, I was deeply addicted in the intense competition and the outstanding competitors who were standing in the court and arguing with the judges in exactly straight words. Great passion suddenly seized me, I wanted to be one of them. This was not impulse for the moment but firm resolution. Second, it’s a good opportunity to expressing myself to others. Things that we can do in the four year’s campus life is limited, how to strive for more chances during limited time should be considered by us. As far as I’m concerned, there is no opportunity better than Jessup to show the professional knowledge and human performance of us. Therefore, I can't miss the chance to participate in it. Third, it is also a challenge to improve myselfe. The challenge always follows the opportunity, there is no exception on it. Jessup has very high expectations for the competitiors, not only in systematically academic knowledge of International Law, but in the ability of answer the judge’s question rapidly with accurate English. Admittedly, it’s so hard for us; however, I’d like to have a try, with full of my energy.